Lovely Soul

When someone you care about is no longer within arm's reach, love cuts deep. And your heart hurts, forcing you to cry heartbreaking tears.

It'll never be the same not hearing your voice again. This heart breaks when I walk into a familiar location and expect to hear your lovely voice.

Knowing you didn't want to leave, I sensed your energy.

As memories poured through my mind, I found myself hurting in pain after pain, and my heart began to ache with tears.

My heart is as empty as a desert since the light you brought died out, therefore I'm waking up in silence, balling my eyes, and speaking as little as possible.

I'll always keep your memories close to my heart. In your new life, run beautiful.

Through these eyes

 It's been a while since I kept these eyes closed, and not once did I envision these things happening to me. These eyes are at the crossroads of two worlds: the spiritual realm and mother earth. Constant traffic on both ends. Can I get some form of relief? Observant as I was born to be, down on mother earth, some people live on excuses. That leads to deceit. Here I'm holding things back and letting the spiritual realm take over.

At times, I need a way to escape. But, I really don't know where to run off to either. So, I find myself taking in all that is around me.I feel like there really isn't anyone to reach out to. As a result, I settle into silience because I know only one spirit sees everything.

Disability Resolutions

 This is the Disability Social Movement. It started as a hashtag and now it's a part of this poem that rings true for people with disabilities.

We don't ask for much, except for acceptance. We're no different from our able-bodied family and friends, etc. This is our 2022, and we are going into further years. Inclusion, Accessibility. Frankly, we need you as a society to hear us because we just need to be heard.

Letter To God

 I'm writing this letter to the Lord our father, he hears and see's everything.

No child can not lie to you because you see right through them. And give them karma in time.

First, I ask for your protection from all evil spirits, sending all evil spirits back to where they came from not to harm anyone. Thank you, Father Lord.

  Dear Lord

You see and hear things twenty-four-seven, nothing can pass you no matter how hard us your children shall try.

  You see Lucifer's games being played and cause chaos, emotional, physical, and mental abuse is definitely his game. Altering the mind of your children. If it's in your will to guide all your children out of these situations.
  

Father Lord,
I see the eyes of Lucifer seeking inward causing discomfort, and I feel better not being around that. So, I do my best to move as quickly as possible because Lucifer is in the room. You are the only spirit that can break through Lucifer’s viciousness. 

I shall speak only for myself, every day I'm dealing with something both emotional and physical pain. And only you can see the cause of this pain.

 

I'm feeling broken verbally and fighting through this verbal pain. Speaking can be difficult around others because they are quick to judge me. They wonder why I can't talk to them and my response is to go silent.

I have been bullied way too many times and I've grown strong vocally against bullying. These people don’t get the picture of the reason for my voice turning inward instead of outward. Causing pain is a beautiful game to them.

I know you are there with me always front and center. So, this is the reason for this letter to you Dear Father God.

You know my physical pain even if I don’t speak it and it breaks me deeply because no one else will get it.  This pain I have been dealing with for many years and, I’m talking about internal pain. Only you Dear Father God know this pain.
For those who don’t know I have written poetry on this subject because this is the only therapy besides God that will not judge me. 

 I know that one day God will answer my prayers to healing this physical and emotional pain.

Envious

 

Nights and Days seem to be rough most days. This body from time to time is showing it. Especially, in the eyes. I know some can truly relate without the hashtag me too.
Here comes my spiritual gift and spirits don't lie, there are two human beings taking life like it's a competition with me. I knew this from the get-go. And I clearly don't get the whole point in this. There is true jealousy at its finest when one human being, only wants to poke fun at me. Never do they ever want to hold a genuine conversation. I don't see what it is about me that, you need to compete. I find myself shutting down and not in tears because I'm over it. I clearly just can't talk without me too coming behind. Therefore, I pulled the plug slightly on this side.
  Sleeping some nights is really draining, this body wake's up in pain sometimes. I can truly tell you why. But, only a few will take the time to understand. As for others will shout out to me too. And this is no competition because, at the end of the day, nobody walks away with a plaque saying you are the greatest. Sometimes I feel the energy moving around, and it causes me to feel pain. I can't explain the difference in words verbally. What I can do is express them in a different form, my whole body is spaced out, and my ears feel clogged with a lot of spirits whispering. It is like an out-of-body experience.

Picture: A female wearing a fuchsia nightcap and a light blue robe. her eyes are closed. There is an effect on the photo, a Mirror effect making the photo appear like there are two of the same person. 

Spiritual Gift

 

I'm lying silent among over half a million, my story has been shared multiple time's and I'm not even finished with it yet. I hold on to yet another story, a story that connects with a different realm, on a spiritual aspect, I can hear spirits and see them at times. A Journey that was out of my control, causing a bit of frustration, due to all the noise that runs through my head. I want to tell people don't be afraid of me, God has blessed me with a powerful gift, a gift to be able to read into the past and into the future.

 

Hear no evil, see no evil

I'm waiting for this story to unfold, clingy individuals who can't see the positive side of things, always looking for something wrong in others. They always send off negative energy setting off anxiety. Like, Where has the light gone. The world hears nothing but lies when the truth is hidden somewhere inside, tired of this super clinginess. Like, Saran Wrap on a bowl. I'm feeling super stressed out from time to time, with trying to maneuver around things just to live to the best. So, I can finally reach towards my accomplishments. Then here come darkness covering, the Iris were you barely see the sclera. I'm clearly not resting like I should be, dealing with things thrown at me. Pointer finger goes to the lips, sh! This is reality of something crying out for attention in mysterious ways. breath reeks and it's really hard to speak, no this isn't about me. I don't need any competition when trying to hold a conversation, with all truth and honesty just listen please. Shall words be spoken to someone who is difficult to reach, a person who sees a conversation as a competitive competition? I want to have a verbal break down and mentally lie in silence because I need to clear things away. Hear no evil, see no evil this is what it needs to be.

Devine

 

I see spirit's from time to time and it really irks me, some are walking within living souls driving other living souls insane. Can we breathe in silence and exhale without pain. Avoidance can become quite hard for most of them, while others play life-like a deck of cards, pulling out all the jokers straight-handed.  

  I dare you not to nod your head in agreement nor disagreement stay completely still with your ears wide open.  Lucifer plays with fire and waiting for you to get burned. He is here to watch your sin. Like, the jokers that are on the table, they're not there to see you win. Lost for lost is their game. 

  Can we scream for victory when it rains, I'm done with the constant barriers placed by the non-believer, throwing out their beliefs about what they see for you. I speak upon the truth and will take my words to war. So, Lucifer can sit in between the fire he has created and watch God's earthly angels soar for victory because we're number one. 

Journey just got real

This goes out to the public...you can clearly see me. 

  My eyes maybe hidden behind these shades. And nothing but positive goals running through this mind. Anyone who choose to stare at me for long periods of time, trying their darnest to pick out flaws, I simply got words for you. 

  I ain't got time to drown on your sunk in ship, I rather rise high and beyond. If you want to flooded these ears with a bunch of negativity, I'll let you know I don't have no time nor space for that. You can flood many ears with that... I have dreams and goals. So, I'll carry my life remote with me... I know there will be plenty of negative people who don't have clear intention of me. 

 If you are not on my side in seeing, what I'm truly capable of, I won't stand still just to make you happy. 

My Journey

There is something I truly need to get off my chest, and I'm truly proud of this accomplishment. I woke up a few weeks ago. Like, I haven't even thought about lifting up an eyelid, ha ha ha, very funny I must say. Don't mind me that's the nerd inside of me. So, I pour myself a glass of punch... This chic don't sip on liquid courage.

Oops I poured too much. But, it never so hard to shallow with a door wide open.

  I have moments where I completely felt drained. So, I clearly drain out every sound just to listen to the voice inside my head.

  Can I get to my destination, or will I ever find peace? Theses two questions always resonate in the back of my mind, until I begin to see everything fall into place.

  Dreams only come when you put forth the effort, and I have done that for some time now. Therefore,  two opportunities came knocking and,  you bet I kept walking. Now it looks like I'm hitting the road. 

Unwritten tears

  There are many stories that's been written, and some are pretty clear to see. But, do you really hear any written about me. Conceitedness isn't my thing, I keep it cool and I keep it clean. Some may beg to differ because I try to avoid all conflict. So, finding the space to distance myself can become hard. Especially, if you can clearly understand what I'm dealing with, day in and day out, pills after pills I'm just clearly through. 

 I keep the liquid in my cup pretty clean, ha ha ha that should say something about me. If you get words that float like oil, its time to check your source... I only speak nothing but the truth. 

  I'm in my head trying to figure all this out, this life called freedom--dealing with attachment is hurting. So, if you walk into a smoked filled room, and can clearly see perfectly fine, you can perfectly understand me.

 I'm done letting out unwritten tears, when the words are hard to find. And it's not like I have tried speaking before--I've done that. So, now these words have become unspoken tears. 

This heart holds memories closely and it breaks very easily. So, if my silence hits you dead front in center, this is how my heartfelt for so long. And now you're beginning to understand my heart-felt pain. 

💭 clarity

  I'm in need of this moment to find my peace and, some just don't clearly get the picture. So, I fumble through frustration while seeing all the things going on around me. So, I fill a clear glass cup with water, knowing this water will purify me... I see demonic entity and they sure don't like me. So, the hell with them as I continue to pin all these thoughts I get on the daily.
 I lay in my bed sober from all the toxic that's polluting everyone's judgment. am I the only one who can see clearly? Silence is the golden answer to protecting me... I don't have any room for debates.

  One day I will reach what I have always been yearning for, freedom and along with that will come freedom of speech. So, today like any other day, I stand for myself and what I firmly believe in. I'll fight in silence at times knowing God and his Angels are watching up above. So, my lips are sealed and allow God to take control. 

Pleat

  I'm looking up towards the clouds, knowing that where pain is no longer pain. And that doesn't really ease the pain. Therefore, I try to throw it out like a deck of cards. These words are not coming out clearly as they should, words flowing out like a child scribbling on paper. I'm not doing well. How did you miss it?

  This person who stands in front of me is emotionally broken. So, here I go writing every scene like it's a murder mystery and it's not in any particular order. She's twelve years old and standing alone, at least she thought until a group of people came bullying her for the use of her locker. 

Ugh the bullying entourage. Therefore, she opens her mouth to speak and the bullying entourage refuses to listen. listen clearly, Someone unexpected, spoken twice which alerted the principal. 

 She's always being pulled out of her comfortable zone. And she goes into a complete verbal shut down with a hint of fear hidden behind it. Don't ever get her wrong when she does speak because these words are true.

Communicating is her difficulty and it's for her place to put these things in words.

 She's finally an adult now and still dealing with emotional discomfort. Can she find her way out of feeling this way? She has found her escape in getting these words out. But, she still struggles with it at times. Like the lines in making a sharp crease in a pair of Jeans.

Peaceful Heart

Here we go starting up into sky trying to figure out who the hell we are. Eyes become weak when they look into the distance, have you ever sat in silence to get the picture...if you sit in silence you will see a clearer picture. there's no time to be a witch who is set out to scorn, stop being hurtful and clean up your dirty words.

Heart of liberty

This heart has harmony and is synced with peace, it knows  how to protect itself. But, others want to disturb it. Like, the tainted ocean. So, you better not come near me. You can't force this heart out of its belief, nor hold it back from its destiny.

This heart strings are held on damn tight. So, you better not try to break its focus, or try to pin someone else's action upon this heart. If you can't handle the way this heart feels, it's time for your heart to learn, how I must feel...every tear does not equal sadness, and every laugh does not equal happiness. So, can you see how these two feelings can easily flip on you. Tears may rise during happiness, and laughter is used to hide the pain of a broken heart.

  This is where my heart has been, and now I must dust it off. So, I can keep on moving...I don't have time for people who hold jealousy in their soul. I'm who I am and won't change for anyone.

A child

Here is life coming from an unclear mind, you don't know where or when things will happen for you. You would rather settle into your bitterness and put the blame on someone else. 

A child who clearly has a problem, and is trying to do their very best, keeps getting pushed down like a stack of Domino's, the one who strives for the best of all they can do. And stumble over broken words, is the one who gets called out as a fool.

  A child should never have to dig, to find where their hearts truly lie because it should already know. But, once that barrier becomes broken and words are no longer spoken, their hearts no longer beat the same. You have attacked something that you will never get back. And at the end you have turned a child's emotions into bitterness towards you. 

 A child should have their defenses, even when it comes to words, allow them to speak... that's how stories are told. Don't ever silence the voice of a child, nor cause pain or unnecessary emotions in a child...their love will quickly dry up towards you.

🌍 Confession ♻

 I want to reach out to as many people as possible, this heart is genuine and does not hold anything back. I shed tears when I am feeling down, laugh when things are funny, why I even crack myself up sometimes. I'm a soul filled with a lot of emotions, and I know you are too.

 Fear gets the best of us sometimes, mostly when you don't expect it to. CoVID---19 has millions of people on the edge of their seats, and about half are staying cool and collective through the process. Can we ask  forgiveness, for all the things we have done? putting the blame on everything else around us. Do we deserve quarantine and for how long? America will be great again after, learning from these mistakes we all have made.

  Are you brave enough to own up to your mistakes, taking the garbage to its rightful place? Asking yourself small questions only you know the answers to. I know and see the changes I need to make. This is definitely the time to sit still and listen... we're the ones to blame for this. Mother earth has us all on punishment, you can see those who are obedient and the ones who are defiant.

 I feel deep within this heart, that we all will make it through this together, if only you do your part and stay safe.

Vibe nation

If you could only choose the color of, every emotions that takes place, it would be the color of shattered glass. Now I leave you to ponder on that note...Many emotions can have multiple shades. So, don't bring me back to yesterday or any other day. I want to remain peaceful in this moment, and doing my best to leave negative people, and feeling a lone. This is the vibe I have chosen to carry through out this life. Therefore, don't try to damper my pride.

Truth reveals

  Silence surely does hurt when it comes to unspoken words... your heart can only handle so much. But, when it comes to finding the space to release, keeping it all in your head is never enough, causing nothing but flashbacks and broken tears. Man, what I'm I doing here? I see my purpose in life but, getting it is hard. Therefore, it's better when I put it into words.

  Living With a disability isn't easy when you have other conditions too. Yeah to the blue and white placard, there's nothing to become hype about. I rather park somewhere else. But, I'm not the one behind the wheel. I have been broken for a few days now, trying to gather all my thoughts in my head.

  I never look towards death... I know that is not the answer. I need space and I need freedom. I'm done with being connected at your hip, I'm me and this is who I'm.

  I have tried multiple times to voice my needs. And it just goes in one ear and out the other, damn when will it ever seep in. So, I rather build metal on a stone wall... You never want to see the best in me at all.

  A child who has a lot of potential, and will rise to the top...these eyes are tired of seeing things, and can't speak face to face...you really can't get a word in. So, throughout these years, I know where your heart truly lies and, I will do perfectly fine.

Creative Mind and Soul

I could only imagine what abandonment feel like, a hole left in the ground, never to come back to cover it up, it's like a deep open cut sore. How can I place creativity in this mix? Creativity is always on the surface. Like, thoughts are away flowing, some come in as good and bad, this is how creativity can be taken in a nutshell, thoughts thrown on paper, canvas anything you name. These are expression turned into creativity, through the mind and soul.

Poetry Corner:

I want to help open your eyes, on what you have finished reading.First I want to say that, Creative Mind and Soul is a group of mines, and its based on all kinds of creativity. Like, Film, Screenwriter, writing in general, if you have the talent, you can be creative. So, this poem is about looking at an object, or seeing something different, and how it can be seen as the same. If that actually makes sense to you, I hope it does.