Biography heart

  

This is a true story of the heart: it holds compassion for others and self, easily misjudged in many ways. So, voicing becomes not easy to some--- they have their own vision of this heart. I'm done pretending everything is fine, deep down inside. So, I have found my way of healing...I know what is right for this soul.

I have gone through a lot, and I'm still going through more, and honestly, I just want to literally mentally and physically escape from it all... this heart can't beat the same anymore. I know who cut this person that, I'm today, but mentally and physically, I see where I need to be. But, not many see these intentions of mine. So, they rather mentally pick at me to see a reaction, pulling things out about themselves, just to pin it on me. I'm now at my end and I am barely speaking, and I have alright... this heart treat's everyone the same. 😭

  This heart has always felt compassion a sense of jealousy from others. So, this isn't made up to tickle your fancy. This heart is pure and will remain pure. This is my heart biography❣️

Lean on me

Some days I feel like I'm losing it. And in the very back of my mind, I know everything is going just fine. But, that nagging voice utters otherwise. So, I reach out for support, the one I can truly count on, to make sure this voice is correct.

  Today is like no other day, I'm still smiling. But, I know there definitely is a shadow behind me. I chug up the tears because to others it's a sign of weakness.

 Can I walk where there are trees?...I know they can truly ease away my pain.

  Can I reach my hand out? Like to play tug-a-war, only there is no tugging back.

 

  Can you tell me that you will be there any time of day when I really need you? Some can consider this to be selfish. But, in reality we all need that one shoulder to lean on because this pain can become unbearable at times.

 

   So, Can I count on you to be there, when I need someone to lean on?

 I need to feel like the wind can lift me because all the weight has left me. But, do know that both my feet are still on the ground?

 
 
  

Center

  In life you will come across puddle.

  In life you will come across steeps.

  In life you will come across happiness.

  In life you will come across pain.

  And when all else fail, find your inner peace and come back to reality.

 You get to choose, your reaction and how you respond.

 And this is my response to pain, being calm, now you can do the same.

Inseparable heart

This  heart is too damn contiguous, it loves to easily, looking for that special someone... this heart is not meant to be alone. I live in a state that needs to escape. So, where is the rhythm that can make this heart stay in tune.
Hearts with similar traits, is exactly what this heart needs, someone who  looks pass the outer shell is what this heart is yearning for.
  

Carolina road

Baby doll come lie your head down on daddy shoulder now, and allow your tears to take over...pain isn't for you to hold onto

And just so you know, daddy sure does love you. 

daddy sure does love you

daddy sure does love you

daddy sure does love you

    I'm walking into a low-key bar, asking can I get a shot of whiskey and rum, with the scent of your perfume on my coat, ha-ha the bartender turned around and said: who are you kidding now. Its me your sweet old baby girl. Like, the scent of my cigarettes couldn't cover up, what scent was left on your jacket now.

  So, she winked and turned, and smiled sarcastically and said: who is daddy's little girl now...the sent on your jacket sure as hell ain't mines.

  I never thought once in a blue moon, I would ever catch you here, nor would you be the one to serve me, whisky and rum. Now I guess it's time to call shot-gun... daddy sure does love you. So, I guess I'll order up  one more round of whiskey and rum, before I walk out on you now.

Daddy never thought to do you wrong. But, I shall take all the blame for, the hell I've done to you. So, I won't get that last kiss goodnight, nor a good hug good-bye.

 I want you to always know, daddy always will love you forever...you are these strings to my guitar. So, this is my last goodbye... daddy sure does love you.

daddy sure does love you.

... daddy sure does love you.

 So, I guess I will not be taking you home tonight.

Vibe nation

If you could only choose the color of, every emotions that takes place, it would be the color of shattered glass. Now I leave you to ponder on that note...Many emotions can have multiple shades. So, don't bring me back to yesterday or any other day. I want to remain peaceful in this moment, and doing my best to leave negative people, and feeling a lone. This is the vibe I have chosen to carry through out this life. Therefore, don't try to damper my pride.

Truth reveals

  Silence surely does hurt when it comes to unspoken words... your heart can only handle so much. But, when it comes to finding the space to release, keeping it all in your head is never enough, causing nothing but flashbacks and broken tears. Man, what I'm I doing here? I see my purpose in life but, getting it is hard. Therefore, it's better when I put it into words.

  Living With a disability isn't easy when you have other conditions too. Yeah to the blue and white placard, there's nothing to become hype about. I rather park somewhere else. But, I'm not the one behind the wheel. I have been broken for a few days now, trying to gather all my thoughts in my head.

  I never look towards death... I know that is not the answer. I need space and I need freedom. I'm done with being connected at your hip, I'm me and this is who I'm.

  I have tried multiple times to voice my needs. And it just goes in one ear and out the other, damn when will it ever seep in. So, I rather build metal on a stone wall... You never want to see the best in me at all.

  A child who has a lot of potential, and will rise to the top...these eyes are tired of seeing things, and can't speak face to face...you really can't get a word in. So, throughout these years, I know where your heart truly lies and, I will do perfectly fine.