Physical Breakthrough

Today I need some inspiration to carry on with this day. I am doing fine mentally. But, this body doesn't want to move...deep down inside, I just want to break down in cry. I am not lost. So, don't come looking for me, I just need sometime alone. Today I woke up physically in pain, I am tired and want to lay in bed all day. I need to be rejuvenated by warmth of the sun... dealing with this physical pain daily is no rainbows and butterfly. And someday I wish: I could physically be in a different place. So, far away when I am dealing with this pain... at times it messes with me mentally. Therefore, I must talk to myself in my head, to tell myself: everything will be okay.

Dreamer

I am lost inside this bubble called "empty space." There are no rooms at all. And I'm just sitting clinched in the corner, jabbing my eye out with tears... my voice can't project how I feel. So, I wonder why I am left closed off to the world, seeing the same thing day after day. I want to close my eyes and pretend that I didn't see it. But, it's too late and I have to remain silent. My soul is hurting deeply in this shell, and I really need some comfort. But, these thoughts are racing. I'm like, speeding behind the wheel. Do I really need to speak and be heard like any other human being? Yes. But this life I am living must be kept secret. I am inside this bubble trying to figure things out. I am not allowed to voice my opinions outwardly. So, does this explain my unspoken words, or should I bury them deep inside for you? Yes! This soul is broken by other words that don't belong to me. Therefore, I became a vessel for their pain. And no, I don't want to shred tears of hurt. But, my soul needs to heal itself. My soul is here for a purpose. So, I am not going to stand still and allow other people's negative vibes to hinder my dream. I shall take this day by day... I am hoping for a brighter outcome. So, I say this with strength: there's an empire with my name on it. And I am not going to turn the lights out just yet.

Intense

Its really about time, I bring this up to the surface... this behavior can't lay still for much longer. Millions of people have been victimized by this devilish acted. And some have been completely afraid to: even come out and speak... of the fear that has been pumped into them by their attacker. I am talking about: Emotional abuse. And enough is enough you see... nearly half of the world is dealing with this right now. But, how can they seek help, if they are limited by their abuser? I am completely lost, and I know it's hard because I had dealt with this before, I have been taking advantage of. And I am not the only one who, has eyes and can see it. So, I am teaching my son, that he can't be a bully...this behavior grow internally, onto the victim and affect them emotionally. So, I am learning to hold onto this spool of thread. But, I am going to continue to be who I am, and I am changing for the better... I am done with the old me. So, if you can't deal with the change, I really can't say much to you then... you chose to keep your eyes shut. And that's fine with me...God is dealing with you now. People, won't be stepping on shards of glass, or wearing a do rag with a mop in their hand... they have much higher goals in life, and they shouldn't change...you think it's not right. Yes! their afraid of this constant battle when it comes to freedom. But, sooner or later they will find a way out.