Connect

  Today and everyday, let's be connected at heart, let go of your difference for a moment, just to be able to listen to each other. We all operate the same way. So, why can't we stop to listen, rather than break down the wall, of someone else life, or belief.
 I speak on different levels to my understanding...a heart can become wounded, if you can't find the courage to speak. And once you have found your courage, stand up proud and become your own voice. The voice of others has a significant place, called Love. And it should comes from within self, and who are we to judge someone else, if you can't see for yourself.
  America is separated because there's is no direct contact, war between war, put down those guns that's for sure. And learn how to speak again...this is how we can make America great again. 

Heavenly Nature

  Here comes the thunder before it rains. And there no ounce of heart break. Their hearts will forever be at peace. They all come running, like a herd of: lions in their pack. But, they never saw the herd of: hyenas laughing behind they back.

 Eye for an eye will never be covered in tongue. They will always make sure to keep, their hearts pure. Angels of the lights shall dance, with grace from above, casting out witches brew, telling the devil they are through.

 You are here for a purpose. So, when you begin to feel that, your heart not pure, reach out to God because he's the only source, who will guide you through.

Heart 2 Heart

  This heart always holds kindness. it fears rejections. This heart does its best to keep kindness flowing, even though it really wants to say No!

  Her heart holds in many emotions.

 some become unbearable to speak on. 

The only way she feels safe is, keeping them bottled up, or speaking out loud.

she does not want to deal with more pain.

Can she close her eyes and wish that her pain would fade away? 

 And begin a new chapter on a different page. 

she knows within her heart,no one would sit still to listen.

 she continues to wear her heart upon her sleeves.

Trying to let go of the fear of saying no.

  Can you hear this love of pure truth?

 I seriously need to get this off my chest.

 I will continue to let my kindness flow. 

But now, it's time for me to... learn how to say No! 

And it's coming from the heart. 

A child journey

  I'm capable of doing all things through him...he gives me strength. (Philippians 4:13)

So, I'm on this journey that, the devil can't stand to see me on. But, I shall continue to walk and be proud of multiple accomplishment... I'm built to be strong.

   

Tears may come off as a sign of weakness to some. But, I will take it as a sign of strength... I was created by God. So, Lucifer, I don't have any space for you... I hold faith in God. 

  

Sometimes there will be strong storms, which I shall look at as breakable barriers. And continue to move forward... I know the devil lil scheme.Therefore, I will continue to acknowledge: my father and work underneath him... he's the one who gives me strength.

Stitches

 Each day I'm out looking for my road to happiness, but my heart at times feels pain seeping in. Do you love me enough to care, or do you prefer me to continue to struggle with this pain? My heart is confident that you are failing me. And I'm here to pick up the pieces. So, I can see where Destiny leads me. I won't change my goals. So, best of luck trying to get me to... I know who and what I'm going to be. 

 

I'm working on building up this structure. So, I can see everything that I have or will achieve. If you can't be proud of me for trying, don't meet me at the finish line. Only those who had my back from day one are true supporters of mine. So, I don't want your negative feedback. To tell you the truth, you're holding onto jealousy. 

 

Therefore, take your own image of goals and run with them... I know your game of trickery. I won't allow you to plant any seeds in my head, nor will I ever allow you to break me... I know your game is to get me alone and feed your belief in me. And no, I won't walk around frustrated and confused... I know you want me to. 

 

This is not you, and that truly does hurt. As a result, I'd rather get rid of all the images in my head than carry them around with me. I know who I'm dealing with.

 

I have my goals set in stone, or better yet, plastered on the wall. So, this remains a constant reminder to me: to keep striving for the stars... I refuse to walk on a path I didn't create. And this should automatically tell you that I'm not happy. So, there goes my heart in pain.

Troubled soul

I rather not glace behind me, just to see what I have left behind... theses are nothing but scares. And nothing but old memories that, has nothing to do with tomorrow. So, I want to leave them behind me. I have created a new path...the path I was leading felt so emptied, or should I just say: I switched it up a bit. 

  Can you please leave this door unlocked---I do have a spare key. She glaces into the dark cold room, knowing that no one else is there, only to see her own reflection glaring back at her. 

  Millions of people covered in Mardi gras mask, echo out in sinister laughter. Can I please catch a break. So, I can get the hell up out of this place. Gold for gold and, silver for silver. And I bet you didn't catch the golden dollar... when there's no response, the room goes completely silent. 

  She dances with no boundaries, and she dances alone...no one will ever catch her rhythm. And she feels much better, when she dancing alone. Thoughts can run free and, the only person who can understand her is ME! Therefore, never feel afraid to speak, even though, you heard those voices behind the mask. Speak until you run out of words. But, don't worry if no one ever gets, what you are saying,its wasn't meant for them anyway. 

 If you ever catch up with, your shadow again: remember you are protected by your own words. So, don't let anything break your focus... This isn't no one else journey but yours.

See my capabilities not my disabilites

Someday's I feel scared as hell, trying to do my best. Its the others who see me wearing the label. So, I shall sit and stand... they're scared of my determination. I won't be hidden away...you are ashame to be seen with me in public. I have been made aware of: my condition status. But, I won't use that to stop me from moving. So, I don't have one ounce of doubt within myself...I already know I can. Its the other individuals who chose not to see, what I'm capable of. And its really upsetting me... you don't fully understand: I can do impossible things. 

 I do find things difficult at times and here is why, the non believer, you see my condition and, base my ability over that. But, have you seen me in action, or do you really understand, what's going on with me at that moment? No! That's where the pain comes from, people who don't have faith in me... I know, I have faith within myself and, I show it every day. 

  Therefore, you can be pissed until the sunrise... I'm not standing still for no one, even if I'm only sitting down. My mind is still moving and, my body is still breathing, I'm going to be going places... I'm human despite what you think of me.

Cultural Celebration

   Have you ever tried to hear that, you have created tears of joy? But, failed to realize your heart was in pain? It's pretty complicated that I do know. But, I'm ready to shift directions and, take everything that I know with me--- some have become blinded by the true definition of determination. I shall not swallow, what I believe in to be true and, neither should you. The sky is very high up for a reason. So, take the time to glare upon it, and allow your thoughts to run free.

  We are vibrant souls and, hold kindness in our hearts. So, do you believe in God and his angels... through him, your heart is created to hold, kindness. We all were created equally and, given different skin complexions to learn, about diversity. This is the time to embrace what our culture holds. But, not take what you have learned for granted, nor sell your belief to others. But, do teach to enlighten us. And then it's up to us if this is a path we shall take. 

  I shall not walk across a burning bridge --- there is a true lesson behind it, what you may see on the other side, may not be golden. So, take the time to read in between the flames... Satan is no joke and, he lives off of tricker. 

  Therefore, keep your soul vibrant and, hold kindness forever in your heart... through diversity, we can learn so much about each other. And begin to realize there's a piece of us, inside one another. Now that I have taken your mind in a whole different direction, are you seeing a better picture, or are you still stuck in your mindset? I'm determined to keep this positive flow.

Jurassic

Can we cue the curtains please... there's a huge situation in this heart. But, I truly don't think you're ready for this. Every human should feel pain and relief unless they are a man-made source. I'm not going to hide this any longer, I'm in a community that wasn't by choice, Disability. So, I'm pouring all my heart out as much as possible... I'm possible.

 I have seen enough for my age, to really put an end to this world discriminating amongst, this Community I live in. And shall I tell you why? But, first, you're going to want, to give me a standing ovation for this, I'm just saying.

 Take a step out of your shoes for a minute, I mean seriously, remove your shoes and stand bare the ground. Okay, once you are there, simply close your eyes and envision your life, with a disability, any disability would do just fine.

 From school to even finding a job, can you clearly see that? This is no fun and games, this is really enough to cause pain. It has caused pain for many, and it sure has. And we have had enough of it.

Each day we conquer our daily battles, whether you don't want to believe us or not, this is our life. We have enough courage and strength, to not take on anyone's bull shit. So, for one thing, don't compare your life against ours. You can walk and breeze right through a door, with a cheerful grin. And let's not get this confused... you would clearly understand what I meant by this. Days in and days out, phone calls after phone calls, and not one call back. Damn if we're trying our hardest, at finding a job!

  I can clearly speak through experience, working from the back of the house to assisting others. And my payment was only felt through the heart. But, my heart can't pay for my necessities. So, I'm waking up figuring out this life... I'm doing everything right. But, yet, I have to deal with: the outside world of people, whose hearts are not pure, clearly taking advantage. So, I'm working hard on building my own empire... I definitely earned it. And this is what true pain feels like, people think you're vulnerable... I will help each person with the kindness of my heart. But, now it's time to fly free... I really haven't done anything for myself.

Is this love or pain

Our hearts are like butterflies without wings, they flutter inside the cage therein. But, how can a heartbeat break, if our hearts never grew wings? There are times where I truly feel this heart sink, it gets buried deep inside. Do you even care about these waterfalls? 

 Can you tell me, if I were to fall, would you be there to pick me back up...I'm deeply buried in these scars. These tears are the stories of my struggle, and I'm done with carrying on this way. Heartbeat for a heartbeat, and breath after breath, this has always been my story. But, it's surely about to change. 

  These words will become our stitches to healing a broken heart. So, can I reach out to you, when I desperately need you... I don't want to come home. Therefore, keep your heart wide open... I know someday, I will need you.

Invisible

Dramatic sounds hit the ground, when the sound of the unknown voice is heard. Some were the sound of children, and some sounded like, voices unheard. They seem to create chaos, building demonic glare, keeping you from speaking up. Small talk seems to be their thing, as they are digging their own hole.

You need to always keep your guard up...you already know what they're after. You need to move slowly. But, you need to do it quickly... they're all about time. If they throw stones, you aught to  dodge them. Like, a bullet. Now quickly draw out your master plan, keep it hidden so they can't find it...they want to know your entire system.

They become excited over high burning flames. Now, can't you see there's no Angelica side to them. So, the moment you hear the sound of thunder, you better make a move... following comes the rain.

Unknown

They walk with the legends of unfaithful stories, with no form of heart protection. So, are you scared to hear their voices...all you will hear is plain static.

I won't rely upon these clouds to tell me the story. Especially, when the truth has been revealed multiple times more than once She holds onto her belief strongly--- they are out to get her and want every piece of her... she knows they want her gone.

Their words were crisp, leaving lacerations across the heart. And building upon hearsay. So, to be or not to be,that is the question. Their hearts seem to have gone stale.

She won't ride upon their train, nor swim across their sea...she can clearly see. Rainbows will dance and voices shall sing...it will cast out all the aliens. So, you better not come nearby. :)

Vivid

 Beauty is covered in all different shades. So, are the tears they shed. Can you tell me why words of the tongue cut so deep, and the lack of other people wisdom seem to fail. Its time to re-evaluate the situation... while the world seems to be getting the joy of causing pain, on others who are trying to voice the best they can.

  This journey is on the horizon. So, we're coming up like Fast and Furious, Vin Diesel may think he has the lead. But, we must hand it over to: Tyrese Gibson. Now this is our mission behind the steering wheel and, we're pretty damn proud of it too.

 Therefore, There won't be any dodging any flags...our heart is set in stone. And this journey won't go stale. We have felt words that has cut deep. But, we will rise above and beyond... We're going to make the greatest impact on the world. So, you unto watch out... you haven't heard the greatest acception speech yet.

  You maybe sick and tired of this word... it's something we live with on a daily. So, we have made it our mission to speak about it... nearly half of this world is riding on: Stupidity. You can't open your heart to see, the brighter spectrum of people with disabilites. And its a damn shame that, for those who live with it daily have to prove it.

  We are beautiful and fully capable individuals. So, we don't need to be discreetness against. We just need you to, step back and let us show you, what we are fully capable of. And we will promise you that: you will be amazed...there is unbelievable power behind this skin.

Her voice

 

I'm tired of being sick, and my temperature drops every time. So, I really need this extra space... I feel  the walls caving in. And my legs always feeling like, they're kept in chains, I can't do one simple thing without a hawk watching over me. Now I'm crying in fear...she knows the word is going to set herself free.

  Someone please tell me: why some people's hearts are so stone cold, you fear letting out the word, you know they need to hear. But, this voice won't stay silent for as long as it has. Voice of freedom speech, there have been over millions who have spoken before me. So, I won't hold my breath, nor my tongue for that matter... she should be able to speak. But, it's like only speaking words of happiness. Like, she was built to be a robot. She has dealt with many things in her lifetime, and now she just wants to be free. She means take to these scissors and finally release her... she really needs for you to finally see with your own eyes.

 She can't breathe because she is constantly being suffocated, and really needs an escape route. But, everywhere she goes there seems to be, a treading line. So, now she holds her heart in the palm of her hand... it has been beaten up a lot of times. Do you seem to care enough to listen? come help guide this child through her struggle... the one who has hurt her, really doesn't really care at all.

 Therefore, she tries to cope with a listening ear... she knows what helps her through this pain. But, she still has her silent breakdowns.

Strength is my virtue

If your heart is always constantly getting broken, would you stay where it can be broken some more? You would be the fool to stay there. So, how can you reach out,  if you have no form of outlet? Now that's what you should be searching for.

  You are beautiful and your heart is amazing. Don't allow your heart to be tortured. So, stand up for what you believe in. And if someone else can't accept it let that be on them.
 You have the right to ride on with happiness. So, do your best to hang in there.

  I shall carry on with this life of mines. And I will do a pretty good damn job of it too. I know you can see my struggles. And everything that is going on. So, I must leave it up to you now... this heart is done going out of pace, a pace that a heart attack can set in.

  Read me closely or read me not, its not time for me to leave this life. I still have allot more way to go. And my journey sure is not to be played like Russian roulette. So, you can take your Jack and Daniel, why even your keys. Including, the spies you have set up to watch me... strength is my virtue.
  

Sky high

   Here's a journey I shall walk and, shall not come across any stones...stones have their way of turning into gravel. Therefore, my path will be clear of all negativity. So, I can see clearly on this path.
  You can walk and mumble all you want. But, I will come hastily with my words. So, don't try to stop me in my tracks... I will make the greatest comeback. 🏃

If

 

If you are feeling down, Let's talk.

If you are feeling happy, Let's talk.

If you are feeling bored, Let's talk.

If you are feeling lost, Let's talk.

Always remember to know matter what the situation may be, someone is always ready to listen.

Poetry Corner:

I want to let you in on a piece of, my journey of writing poetry, poetry doesn't always hit me on a daily. So, when it does hit, there goes paper and pen. This poem hit me on the spot. Don't forget to comment, like, and share.

Trail on by

This chic is on a journey that will not die. But, I have seen a few that don't want me too. So, I might as well say: the hell with you, and since when do you, get to pick out my journey too.

 I have seen you take a bite of the forbidden fruit, and now you want to control every road to my destiny. I won't ride on your sticky grounds, and I can care less if you're pissed now...every individual has their rights, in choosing their own path. So, I'm going to ride high.

 I won't tolerate any flies that linger in bull shit, if you can see where I'm coming from. I have been riding on this path for over some years now. And should have already gotten to my destination. So, if you don't mind, I'm going to continue to walk forward... that's where I need to be. 

Won't hold back

  I'm not alone in this battle war, I have my guardian angel and other godly spirit's with me. So, you can whisper, so loud that I can hear you. But, the truth has its ways of coming to the surface. And I won't take my life for granted, I will embrace every breath I take. So, I will conquer every depression demon, or anyone who does not want to see the pride in me.

  My life is not aways easy, and neither is your. I deal with constant struggles, and yes I'm strong enough to defeat them. But, I do need help from time to time. Therefore, don't come casting your shadow over me... it really truly hurts, you see: not being able to gain full access to independent. And this heart hurts having to express it. I may put on a smile, just to quickly hide it. But, the truth has always been: trying to let others see.

 A heart that shows love, knows how to let go. But, its a heart that holds on forever: that can't see the light of someone else, who needs to prosper so they can grow.

   I'm fully capable of my surroundings. But, I fill broken at times and, I will leave you guessing why... I have lost my verbal words, as they were sitting on the tip of my tongue. Now I ask myself, Why are able bodies so judgemental, and  take advantage of disabled individuals. Don't they know that shit hurts. And God is on constant watch up above. So, why keep acting this way.

 I will continue to spit the truth out, to put out your flame...building lies beyond lies, won't get you far. So, you can let go of your perception of me. And finally get to really understand me... thoses thought's are not who I am. So, I will put out the truth, to kill your poison.

Lost and Alone

  My heart cries because it's in deep physical pain, and it's truly hard to explain. Sometimes I want to go run and hide. But, I don't have any place to do so. I have scattered pain through different places, and let me just tell you: I have been dealing with depression. These tears had been frequently. But, they had been settled. So, I can't really tell you where I'm at...my mind still goes through flashbacks. Now it's time for me to, put my life down on paper, although, I still have quite a lot to learn.

  Breathe deep and least the pain, I really don't want to feel this bad. But, in this mind of mines, I'm truly having a hard time. My soul has finally reached out and found courage in sharing this... I felt comfortable with sharing with them. But, I haven't yet clearly told anyone else yet... I still struggle with communicating with some.

  I need to find a place to physically drain away this pain... mentally it's driving me insane. This soul hurts from a lot of things it's has gone through. And let me tell you: bullying is one of them. So, in this mind of flashbacks, I hear those words creeping up on occasion. And that's why this tender heart cries. So, maybe this is my only sign of relief. But, even that brings my heart to tears.

   May I ask you to please keep an eye on me... mentally I'm not doing so well? You may think your whispering is silent. But, if you know I'm in the next room, and can still hear you, it's not whispering at all. Therefore, this soul is like a sponge. And now I just need to be cleansed.

Twilight

Here comes the rain of tangible tears and shattered hearts from a soul who needs to heal. These tears are buried deep inside this heart and need to come to the surface. However, it feels too afraid to speak upon these words: I cried in silence yesterday. I woke up feeling broken inside. Thoughts started rambling in my mind, which brought upon tears I had been holding in. 

So, are these words true? And what must they be? Sadness. My heart is very fragile and I'm battling this sadness that no one seems to know. Would they even care? She's very observant, yet can sometimes become confused. Lately, she’s been feeling out of touch with everything. She sits in silence: she is broken deep inside. And in her thoughts, she is going through everything. Now, will she confess what has her heart a mess? She has gone through so much that talking becomes very hard for her. Sporadic tears dance down her hopeless face, clinching herself to console herself. No one will ever listen to her and it leaves her feeling empty. But, she will keep the door of communication open to God.

Poetry Corner *This picture doesn't belong to me. This poem touches bases on battling in silence with difficult situations. Do you have difficulty with different things in your life? we all do. But, it's how we chose to let it out. So, it doesn't become a burden on us. This is what Twilight is about, letting everything go. So, it doesn't eat you up inside.

Written on the wall

   Is it just me drowning in my head, trying to avoid any unnecessary loud sounds... I just don't want to broke down. This sounds exactly like her. Sometimes she feel like, she walking on pins and needles, and other times she doing just fine. But, is she doing just fine? What you see on the outside, is only the cover. So, you need to open her up like a book, otherwise, your judging a book by it cover.

  Some mornings she woken up by tears, wondering what she did wrong. So, she find the courage and strength to apologise even if it not her fault. But, she guess no one would ever get that...speaking is very hard for her, while others choose to jab fingers, constantly making fun of her. So, she rely on writing her pain across the wall. But, not everything you read is not true, they are just only words that make the perfect fit. Like, didn't your parents ever tell you: don't judge a book by its cover... inside this child, they're hurting inside. So, this is their pain written on the wall.

Secret admirer

This letter comes from the heart, I have been admiring you for quite some time. And I have been so shy to verbally speak the truth. And I don't know why, I have held on for so long. I know you can sense when I'm smiling or blushing through the phone. So, I guess my emotions basically gave it away. Therefore, you know in your heart that, I have feelings for you. But, I fear breaking this friendship bond with you. My heart can't hold onto this secrecy any longer. And these words shall sail towards you, so don't fear if my verbal words tend to slip away... the sound of your voice is throwing me off guard: smoothing this heart. But, I have not heard your voice in awhile. So, my words can finally fly free. You may have read about this feeling once before, and you didn't even know it was about you. I won't plaster your name until you reply, asking who heart fears this friendship between us, would break too. So, all I will say is this: Do you remember me sitting next to you... I do. 💝

Domain Heart

My words are written in silence. But, my heart speaks in action... I find it better that way. Each day lay a new journey for me to go against. And some people will be blinded because they don't want to see, what my true capability are. But, I shall not dwell on their lack of ignorance, nor shall I please them so they can be happy. I'm only here to learn and to teach others. But, if ignorance is your cup of tea, I will only wish you luck and see where it will take you...my heart dream won't lay still. I shall learn how to not, to lead out my heart so easily...not everyone see it out of kindness. So, I must place a limit on this heart of mine. So, people can't just walk all over it. These are my heart intentions, I shall show the meaning of love, and not allow this love to dry up so fast. My passion will never change, even if someone else see a different vision for me. So, as long as this heart continue to beat, I'm going to keep being me. It has taken many years for this heart to open up. And if I calculated this right, five years, my heart has reached it's destination, A destination of experience that is. And that experience was very gruesome. But, I made it through... I'm a survivor. Now is the time for this heart to, reach out to people like me... this is my calling. But, not everyone see that for me. So, that leave my heart on fire, which engages the flame even more. Therefore, this is not the house that Jack built, nor is it his dream. So, this is the vicinity of my heart dream and, I shall move on from there without any explanation...this is my dream and, my destiny. 🌈

Warrior Storm

Have you ever woken up from a dream, just to visualize yourself out into the real world? How can this vision become me, if my body is stuck behind the door, and no one can even hear me? I have drawn out my outline, you see. Now it's time to let go of me. So, I can learn what the real world has for me. Many years ago, I have been struggling without verbally expressing this. But, little by little, I have started voicing this. And my heart truly hurts because of it. Now it's time for me to: ring the alarm on people with disabilities again. Don't live off the assumption of, what our disabilities claim we can't do...to each own. We are built like you. So, it does not matter what you can and can not see. We can become impossible dreamers, and stand up to all you non-believers. We're dreaming higher than the Empire State Building, and the Statue of Liberty. So, try to close your eyes and dream higher with us. Do you see any obstacles in the way, and if so, can you Dodge them...we can. Every obstacle that stood in our path, was a non-believer and didn't see us as dreamers. So, stop and begin to listen, to us...we are tired of stressing our capability to you. We're warriors and despite those labels: Mentally and Physically disabled. We are going to take the world by storm. ♿

Stronger

If there was a sign placed on the back, of my head that read: for rent, would you rent out this space? I have gone through so much that, I physically can't take it anymore. And it's starting to mess with me mentally. So, I must rely on my savior Jesus Christ... I know he's next to God. I really sit in silence sometimes, wondering what is going through this mind. This pain is hurting deeper then you could ever imagine. But, at times I feel better staying to myself. My soul has broken plenty of times, and now I'm feeling quite useless...at times I feel no connection. I am not dreaming of death...my life is worth living. And this soul is on a journey that refuse to, lead onto a path of evil worshipping. Give this heart what it has been yearning for, a dream that will become: my reality. I will continue to follow the path to: my destination. So, for all the non believer, you can try to throw a grenade, just to see if it will: throw me off this path. And just to show you, I will continue to walk... I have been striving for many years, my words will cut like, an average blade. I need to be free, and when I speak: I speak upon my independent. I don't need to struggle to be heard, my actions should be louder than words. Therefore, I will keep climbing Mount Everest until, I have reached my destination. And this will show you that I am strong.🚸

Journey

Momma use to say: Take your time young lady. But, thoses words were never that clear to me, until now you see. Momma didn't want me to go down the same path, Like she did. And that I did not. My path is not smooth sailing, neither has your. We all ran home with, wailing tears in our eyes, looking for Mommy to soothe us, like a band-aid...we knew her words can heal our pain. And this body has been shattered plenty of time. Now its time to replenish this soul. So, it can show on the outer side. I am done with saddened tears---it made me stronger. I have this feeling that, bigger and brighter thing's are heading this way. So, this spiritual journey is not over yet. I will battle against all phantoms that, want to rain on my parade. And during this miraculous journey, I will come out stronger than ever before. If I do show tears, I will carry it with a smile. So, go away phantom, go far away, never to return again. Work cited "Mamma used to say" by Junior Giscombe

Physical Breakthrough

Today I need some inspiration to carry on with this day. I am doing fine mentally. But, this body doesn't want to move...deep down inside, I just want to break down in cry. I am not lost. So, don't come looking for me, I just need sometime alone. Today I woke up physically in pain, I am tired and want to lay in bed all day. I need to be rejuvenated by warmth of the sun... dealing with this physical pain daily is no rainbows and butterfly. And someday I wish: I could physically be in a different place. So, far away when I am dealing with this pain... at times it messes with me mentally. Therefore, I must talk to myself in my head, to tell myself: everything will be okay.

Dreamer

I am lost inside this bubble called "empty space." There are no rooms at all. And I'm just sitting clinched in the corner, jabbing my eye out with tears... my voice can't project how I feel. So, I wonder why I am left closed off to the world, seeing the same thing day after day. I want to close my eyes and pretend that I didn't see it. But, it's too late and I have to remain silent. My soul is hurting deeply in this shell, and I really need some comfort. But, these thoughts are racing. I'm like, speeding behind the wheel. Do I really need to speak and be heard like any other human being? Yes. But this life I am living must be kept secret. I am inside this bubble trying to figure things out. I am not allowed to voice my opinions outwardly. So, does this explain my unspoken words, or should I bury them deep inside for you? Yes! This soul is broken by other words that don't belong to me. Therefore, I became a vessel for their pain. And no, I don't want to shred tears of hurt. But, my soul needs to heal itself. My soul is here for a purpose. So, I am not going to stand still and allow other people's negative vibes to hinder my dream. I shall take this day by day... I am hoping for a brighter outcome. So, I say this with strength: there's an empire with my name on it. And I am not going to turn the lights out just yet.

Intense

Its really about time, I bring this up to the surface... this behavior can't lay still for much longer. Millions of people have been victimized by this devilish acted. And some have been completely afraid to: even come out and speak... of the fear that has been pumped into them by their attacker. I am talking about: Emotional abuse. And enough is enough you see... nearly half of the world is dealing with this right now. But, how can they seek help, if they are limited by their abuser? I am completely lost, and I know it's hard because I had dealt with this before, I have been taking advantage of. And I am not the only one who, has eyes and can see it. So, I am teaching my son, that he can't be a bully...this behavior grow internally, onto the victim and affect them emotionally. So, I am learning to hold onto this spool of thread. But, I am going to continue to be who I am, and I am changing for the better... I am done with the old me. So, if you can't deal with the change, I really can't say much to you then... you chose to keep your eyes shut. And that's fine with me...God is dealing with you now. People, won't be stepping on shards of glass, or wearing a do rag with a mop in their hand... they have much higher goals in life, and they shouldn't change...you think it's not right. Yes! their afraid of this constant battle when it comes to freedom. But, sooner or later they will find a way out.

Chakra

The sky is like a crimson hue, and this soul is hurting deeply too. Like, broken shards of glass. Theses silent tears are of truth, They can't speak, or they will get shot with the bullet of the tongue. Theses thoughts are trying so hard to hold on. But, where and who can they rely on. They are broken behind a close door, cringed in the corner so deep, you can barely see them. Why is this pain so bad, and why does it hurt like shards of broken glass? This pain is only a lesson, to see if you can battle against your weakness. I shall run completely until this body goes numb. Shall I call out from a distance... I feel this blood has gone dry. I won't stay in a place where, people will emotionally attack me. So, here come the truth---I know it will always set me free. This is coming from a mind of Jealousy, and no its not mine you see. God has created his children and, some have dibble in evil force, taking blood from other sources, and talking bad against their own blood... divide and conquer you see. And they thought it wasn't going to get found out. But, it has gone on for far too long. So, now it's time to break down theses barriers, and finally reach out to the world. They said: Never said Never. But, sometimes it's okay to bend the rules you see, never stay where your heart is constantly getting broken. And you can't find sources of relief. Come breathe in the perfect hue.

Reflection

I have been through so much pain, and now I'm holding my head... I am about to go insane. My heart has been broken multiple times, and I will always have it in the back of my mind. I shall not fear your torment. But, I am through with this colored shaded game, trying to bring back the old error of separation. Beauty is only a shade that can fit any color skin. Do you see the tones of each individual, when glancing through their pictures? Some are dark and, some are light complexion. And it does not fall on their interaction. So, we shall not judge upon another person's skin. If we all lay still just for a moment, closing our eyes only to visualize, the color of love, you will begin to see multiple colors. And within each color, you will see there is love... love is multiple shades. So, now can we forget about racism, discrimination and bring back, how it was in the very good old days.

Hearts Of The Lord

Behind these walls stands an innocent child of God. But, their souls have been beaten, and their eyes begin to flow with tears. Shall we shallow back truthful words of the innocent one, or jot it down like it's a passage from the Bible? Each child that has been born to a mother and father, will always remember something of their past. Their past may come in vivid dreams, or through self concession. And their hearts will be filled with warmth...they have been blessed by their father. Lucifer, children shall flock and dance with their father of the heavens. And obey each scripture written by him. So, remove yourself away from them. And find it within your own soul, to ask for forgiveness. No one should ever feel pity for speaking the truth, nor be tormented into holding onto deadly pain. Open your mouth and let the truth come out. So, you don't have to feel like, you are always at a constant war...you have the heart of the Lord.

Battle against Battle

This is the first fog, and its leaving mist outside on this windowpane. Does it hurt when you place, your face against the window? Probably so. So, why can't some human being express all their feeling, and only rely on just one. I am no ventriloquist. But, I will speak underneath my breath, when no one wants to hear me. I am wrong for doing so? No, so why don't you just leave me alone. People make assumptions all the time, and base off of those assumptions: Some of its pretty dang gone true. So, here a little history about me, and me alone you see. I have a learning disability, and no I'm not using it as an ATTENTION seeker! Yes! this is absolutely true, what your about to read, is what I go through. My communication isn't all that great, I am able to understand some words to some degree. But, don't use that opportunity to pick with me. All I really need is a clearer understanding of the picture you see. Plus, if you have read my story, or even been around me, you would also know: I have Hypothyroidism. And I shall educate you on my symptom, if you may ask. But, I will share it with you anyway. And just like my disability, I am not using it as a ATTENTION seeker, you just have to really understand me. Hypothyroidism, is clearly a Thyroid condition. No its not a contractible disease. So, you can't catch it, if you were to sit next to me. Hypothyroidism, is a under active thyroid, which mimic's other symptom's. Like, Fibromyalgia and other symptoms of its own. So, I will have days were, I am extremely tired and just want to rest. And days were my body is, completely in pain. But, I still move the best that I can---I am the warrior that I am. Despite, Fatigue,Increased sensitivity to cold,Constipation,Dry skin,Weight gain, Puffy face,Hoarseness,Muscle weakness, Elevated blood cholesterol level, Muscle aches, tenderness and stiffness,Pain, stiffness or swelling in my joints, Heavier than normal or irregular menstrual periods, Thinning hair,Slowed heart rate, Depression, Impaired memory and Mood swing. Therefore, before you start lashing out at me, come try a day or two in my shoes--- my life is not easy as it seems. But, I do my best to understand and live the best way I can. So, if I stumble upon my words, or try to speak the best way I can. Try to place your head around, my daily life, before shut me down. So, with theses two things, is really a constant battle for me. And all I really need is patience, which is a must clearer understanding.

On the arises

Sometimes I really begin to question myself. Like, is this life I am living worth, all the pain am I enduring? And those who claim to love for me, do you really love me for me, or is this a front...you put on tons of make-up, just to cover up. And create a ton of lies without, seeing things with your own eyes. I am working on space and, it will eventually have a solution. So, are you with me, or are you with someone else? I had too many opportunities to work things out. But, you have brought this upon yourself. And trying to break every glass bottle over my head. Therefore, I will only have three wishes, I shall work truly hard for. And I am no longer sharing them until they finally fall through---I see true evilness and, no I will not deal with that. So, if I choose to remove myself from the picture, and stay silent to myself, just leave me be---when I did try to speak, you didn't want to hear from me. But, I am not going to worry about that...God is taking care of you. And he knows who was right, and who was wrong. Now its time for me to continue being me, so I can keep on keeping on. And once I finally reach my goal, sorry honey... was that? you were the one in the wrong. I shall dance proudly with the lyrics in my head... I am finally reaching that dream goal. And when my face is truly drenched in sweat, there goes my true earning. So, I shall wear my earnings proud... you didn't have any faith in me. But, what does that matter, I poured out true blood and sweat. And now you want, what I have been working for. My earnings are golden. So, Hollywood is there room, just for one more star... I already know my day is coming, and I am going to shine. And to all those naysayers: who chose to believe I shall remain stuck, and trying to hold me back from my dreams: I am like a kite flying without no stings. I have held on for such a long time, I am done trying to prove multiple things to others, who want to hold me back...they feel it's necessary for them. But, I am not a plastic doll that you, can prop up and move around. Like, Polly pocket. So, don't keep trying to hinder me from seeing my dreams... I know that day will eventually come when you are going to want dough from me. And all those times time will come running through my head, like if it was yesterday. So, I will just have to lay silent and listen to my intuition...I only know what is best for me. And with that being said: I am on the arises to my pot of gold.🏆

Silent Passenger

Some nights I am woken out of my sleep, and I am scared as hell. So, I topically let my mind begin to wander, what the hell is going wrong with me. Now, I believe it's my mind telling: me its about that time to leave. But, there are a few things, holding me back you see. And I am doing my mental homework, to figure it all out you see. I just don't know how many times, I truly have to stress about not wanting to be here. And continue to hold up like, everything is okay with me, when I know my gut instinct is telling me its time to leave. But, I truly have to think, in the place of my son...I have to find a place that will accept the both of us. So, I can't just up and leave him behind...I truly love him you see, and he really means the world to me. This is my time to remain humble and, work on this master plan...I don't see myself living here much longer. And only a few will, only understand me, or at least I hope they do...all I have is them to rely on. Therefore, I am truly deep into my thoughts and remaining focus here... once I feel as though, I have built up enough courage and strength, I will leave with: a very well written thank you note. And I will know that, it won't just be my gut instinct anymore...I have many good angel's above me, who will be guiding me through this. So, I am remaining silent until the right storm hits, and that when I will have my things ready to leave. But,until then I will won't say one word.

Black Glass

My heart is in pain, and I don't think, I'll ever be the same. Broken red and white roses on the floor, do I ever mean anything to you anymore? Your tears don't mean shit to me, you once said to me. But, this soul is severely depress, and I honestly don't think you get that yet. So, I will remain stagnant in this space, where I know I am safe---I really have reached my final stay here. And no I'm not talking about death, I just need to really contemplate, on this stage of my life...I am done with living in toxicity. So, I guess I am all alone on this now. But, I must act fast... for many years, you have shown signs of an abuser. And keeping things silent isn't healthy at all. Therefore, I will continue to reach out the best way I can. You can't continue to keep hurting me, and expect me to be nice. Especially, if I am trying to do things right. So, I can move on with my life. You are the reason why, I am limited, and that's wrong. But, you keep planting theses visions in everyone's head, and I am like hell to the no. I am just through here--- your blinded and stuck in your ways. So, I am seriously putting my thoughts together, and I am leaving very soon.

A story from an Angel

The colors in the sky are so radiate that, velvet can't even match it. I am no puppeteer. But, I do know how to pull some strings... I took what I have learned, and use it to my advantage. But, to others they think, I am dumb. I am pretty darn smart you see, and there is no need to make fun of me. And yes Math is a constant struggle for me. But, some how I mange to pass it, to get to where I am. But, I will show every last naysayer, what I am all about. So, if you keep going at the rate, your going, I will promise you that, your road won't be long. Now, I don't understand why, I can't even speak out, when others are trying to hide their own damage. Yes this has been going on for multiple years. But, I see others pick and choose, why they even get to speak. But, when it comes to me, I am told: your not thinking logically. You must not really know me...for years I have always had this problem. So, this is not something new with me. I might as well go ahead and, spill all the beans... the truth will always set you free. Its not like I have recurrent memories. Like, some people have, I remember through their constant stories. So, when those stories are being repeated, how can you not forget it. See I believe in women giving birth to demon children, and I have seen it plenty of times. But, I will say this much, your going to need more than an exorism to release that demonic entity out. Why you shouldn't had been playing with matches, when you where younger. And now your going to get burn. I am not sorry for spilling out any hidden secrets, on this floor. Like, they always say: aways better out than in. So, thank God the truth will be relieved. And I will not feel ashamed, if I come across that demon name. But, I fear it will come after me. So, I am not going to write it's name down, on paper you see, nor will you try to change me. You can go right ahead and believe, every word a child says. But, don't come trying to borrow my ear, to place dirt in...I really don't want to hear. So, the moral of the story is: you are quick to believe in rumours, that a demon child has told. But, when a child of God step into the room, you quickly want to shut them down. God knows his powers can't get shut down. And a lie can't continue to hide forever. So, here is where this story shall end--- God knows the truth lie's within. Therefore, you can keep spreading fire. And when that moment you thought, you were free, don't come calling for me...I have told you plenty of time. So, don't come pointing your finger at me.

Breathe

My blood is beyond, my shadow of wisdom. And I only know the truth... it will set me free. You try to build up your self esteem...you know that's your weakest point. But, it never seems to fail, when you are constant struggling...at this point it becomes a game to others. Yes! I am quite emotional sometimes, and I have the right to be. God has made me with, feeling and I won't hide them from no one. You can take my tears as a sign of weakness. But, we shall see where your name calling will take you. God is our father and he see everything. So, while your trying to feed into my past, to hinder my future, God is watching over me and you. And he will deal with you according. I see no time in trying to talk, if all you get back is, more hurtful words. So, I shall remain silent and keep on hanging in there. But, I won't stand for bullying... its a sign of a coward. And we shall see were that take you. Like, Dwayne Dryer said: How people treat you, is there Karma. But, how you react is your. I won't feed into your pot of stew...I know your words are no good for me. So, I have my own pot healthy stew cooking. And soon your gonna come running... you want my worth. Therefore, I will just throw my hands up, and give you no signs of affection... You have hurt me so deeply. And I will soon be on my way...all you really want from me, is what I have worked hard for. So, if silence has not killed you, with letting you know that: what others have earned, doesn't belong to you... Its theirs and they need to make a living. And I will continue to write... this is my true therapy. And I won't hold onto your negativity. So, I am sailing away from you. Like, a true sailor would do... for many years, I have been trying to separate myself from you. But, you make it seem like, I am the needy one. I won't be a parasite that, you can become super rich off of. I am my own individual. Despite, the things that want to hinder me. Therefore, my Disability don't make me, even though, its my daily struggle. And I do tend to hurt from it. So, I am going to keep being who I am. And if anyone wants to make fun of it, we shall see where that leads you... I am trying my damnedest to push through these walls. So, I can make it into a history book. So, my shadow of wisdom, will be far and beyond.

Soul Connection

Its 5 AM and the sun has not risen yet. But, this feeling you left on my heart is complicated. I am seriously in tears, figuring out what the hell, I did wrong here. We must get together and see eye to eye. But, how can we, if whenever I try to speak, you keep closing me in. I knew the moment, I laid my eyes on you, you were the one for me. But, their was an age gap that, set us too far apart. So, it has been over some years that, this heart is still searching for its whole. May I ask you, are you the one to complete me, or are you the one to: leave my heart crushed like an eggshell? I am not looking to rush into, a committed relationship to quickly. So, either you are on the same page, and get to one another first, or get your last notification...I am in no rush for commitment. Therefore, I know within time, you will not be so hard to find. Your heart is not bleeding as of yet. But, soon your heart will truly find, the one it was meant to be. And just maybe it will be my heart, that will stop the bleeding. 💖

Power

I had open my heart to you with true innocent, and holding it with grace. But, I shall not look back on a fool, who has handle with a metal spoon. People shall dig deep into their future, and never lay on rotten soil. Allow peace to come into you, and never ever look back. I am my own victim of shame, and I know things has changed. But, when the sun moves into the horizon, we must begin our own journey. So, I will pick the ripest fruit and, be on my way--- you must not dwell on the pass. Therefore, if you have read my story and begin at the end, I am sorry honey---I have not gotten there yet. So, never close a book on a blank page--- that where your story shall begin. You can say that: this life is over. But, this life is not over yet, until I begin to score victory! And within this victory that I score, I won't carry a broken heart covered in sores... those days are behind me. And I shall only looking back, at them as lesson. And if people can't see your change, place their naive view in the back of your head...they have chosen blindness over sight. Therefore, don't carry their judgement with you--- its their bitter pill they have to swallow. Now I shall be on my way with: a wooden spoon, while carrying my book filled with knowledge. And yes this book is completely filled, with no blank page. So, my journey has finally closed. The end 💪

Ground Breaker

Sometimes I begin to wonder, do you really love me. Like you say you do, or do you hate me---I really sense you do. And my heart won't lie to me. Sometimes I wander in silence to figure out a plan, do to the fact that: I am hurting deep inside, to the point I seriously want to cry. But, I have to tell myself: is it really worth it. And is this a battle worth of tears. I dealt with communication problems for many years, and no this isn't new. Could this be the reason for my shyness in public, and I only speak unless I am spoken too. I am done with living my life in a bubble, as I am trying my hardest to: put myself out there. I am tired of other people, knowing me as a label. And if this is new to you, I don't mind telling you. I wasn't born this way. Like, one of the lyrics in Lady Gaga song. You have read my story, on Rolling With Spina Bifida website, an organization website for people with disabilites. But, I must not bring up this history--- there was some evil stuff done. And I shall only speak of positivity. I am proud to say: I am one of the writer of: Mind Body and Soul solution, created by a dear friend Anna. But, first for those who don't know my story: I was hit by a drunk drive at infancy. And I live with a learning disability because of it. So, through all the speculation of, what doctors had to say, I came out as a survivor. Now, I am trying to prove to everyone else around me, I can live a dream. Like any other human being... I already know what I am capable of. But, it's through their ignorance that, they chose to be blinded. And live in a space of what, they make up in their head. So, you can see why, I sometimes have to, fight for people like myself. And even that becomes an issue. So, now I have created, a no tolerance policy---I had enough of this. Once I break through these walls that, I am always behind. I am going to create a Disability movement package. And we are going to make, a thousand million March... each one of us knows our own strength. And with that comes our ability. So, we will shut down all the neigh sayers. And watch them come crawling for our money. Like, you haven't had it before. Poetry Corner This poem hold truth to many people with disabilites. And in this poem, I shine the light on my struggles with it, and showing my power through it. I speak for millions of people with a disability too. My dream will shine. Like, multiple people will too.♿