Stitches

 Each day I'm out looking for my road to happiness, but my heart at times feels pain seeping in. Do you love me enough to care, or do you prefer me to continue to struggle with this pain? My heart is confident that you are failing me. And I'm here to pick up the pieces. So, I can see where Destiny leads me. I won't change my goals. So, best of luck trying to get me to... I know who and what I'm going to be. 

 

I'm working on building up this structure. So, I can see everything that I have or will achieve. If you can't be proud of me for trying, don't meet me at the finish line. Only those who had my back from day one are true supporters of mine. So, I don't want your negative feedback. To tell you the truth, you're holding onto jealousy. 

 

Therefore, take your own image of goals and run with them... I know your game of trickery. I won't allow you to plant any seeds in my head, nor will I ever allow you to break me... I know your game is to get me alone and feed your belief in me. And no, I won't walk around frustrated and confused... I know you want me to. 

 

This is not you, and that truly does hurt. As a result, I'd rather get rid of all the images in my head than carry them around with me. I know who I'm dealing with.

 

I have my goals set in stone, or better yet, plastered on the wall. So, this remains a constant reminder to me: to keep striving for the stars... I refuse to walk on a path I didn't create. And this should automatically tell you that I'm not happy. So, there goes my heart in pain.

Troubled soul

I rather not glace behind me, just to see what I have left behind... theses are nothing but scares. And nothing but old memories that, has nothing to do with tomorrow. So, I want to leave them behind me. I have created a new path...the path I was leading felt so emptied, or should I just say: I switched it up a bit. 

  Can you please leave this door unlocked---I do have a spare key. She glaces into the dark cold room, knowing that no one else is there, only to see her own reflection glaring back at her. 

  Millions of people covered in Mardi gras mask, echo out in sinister laughter. Can I please catch a break. So, I can get the hell up out of this place. Gold for gold and, silver for silver. And I bet you didn't catch the golden dollar... when there's no response, the room goes completely silent. 

  She dances with no boundaries, and she dances alone...no one will ever catch her rhythm. And she feels much better, when she dancing alone. Thoughts can run free and, the only person who can understand her is ME! Therefore, never feel afraid to speak, even though, you heard those voices behind the mask. Speak until you run out of words. But, don't worry if no one ever gets, what you are saying,its wasn't meant for them anyway. 

 If you ever catch up with, your shadow again: remember you are protected by your own words. So, don't let anything break your focus... This isn't no one else journey but yours.

See my capabilities not my disabilites

Someday's I feel scared as hell, trying to do my best. Its the others who see me wearing the label. So, I shall sit and stand... they're scared of my determination. I won't be hidden away...you are ashame to be seen with me in public. I have been made aware of: my condition status. But, I won't use that to stop me from moving. So, I don't have one ounce of doubt within myself...I already know I can. Its the other individuals who chose not to see, what I'm capable of. And its really upsetting me... you don't fully understand: I can do impossible things. 

 I do find things difficult at times and here is why, the non believer, you see my condition and, base my ability over that. But, have you seen me in action, or do you really understand, what's going on with me at that moment? No! That's where the pain comes from, people who don't have faith in me... I know, I have faith within myself and, I show it every day. 

  Therefore, you can be pissed until the sunrise... I'm not standing still for no one, even if I'm only sitting down. My mind is still moving and, my body is still breathing, I'm going to be going places... I'm human despite what you think of me.

Cultural Celebration

   Have you ever tried to hear that, you have created tears of joy? But, failed to realize your heart was in pain? It's pretty complicated that I do know. But, I'm ready to shift directions and, take everything that I know with me--- some have become blinded by the true definition of determination. I shall not swallow, what I believe in to be true and, neither should you. The sky is very high up for a reason. So, take the time to glare upon it, and allow your thoughts to run free.

  We are vibrant souls and, hold kindness in our hearts. So, do you believe in God and his angels... through him, your heart is created to hold, kindness. We all were created equally and, given different skin complexions to learn, about diversity. This is the time to embrace what our culture holds. But, not take what you have learned for granted, nor sell your belief to others. But, do teach to enlighten us. And then it's up to us if this is a path we shall take. 

  I shall not walk across a burning bridge --- there is a true lesson behind it, what you may see on the other side, may not be golden. So, take the time to read in between the flames... Satan is no joke and, he lives off of tricker. 

  Therefore, keep your soul vibrant and, hold kindness forever in your heart... through diversity, we can learn so much about each other. And begin to realize there's a piece of us, inside one another. Now that I have taken your mind in a whole different direction, are you seeing a better picture, or are you still stuck in your mindset? I'm determined to keep this positive flow.

Jurassic

Can we cue the curtains please... there's a huge situation in this heart. But, I truly don't think you're ready for this. Every human should feel pain and relief unless they are a man-made source. I'm not going to hide this any longer, I'm in a community that wasn't by choice, Disability. So, I'm pouring all my heart out as much as possible... I'm possible.

 I have seen enough for my age, to really put an end to this world discriminating amongst, this Community I live in. And shall I tell you why? But, first, you're going to want, to give me a standing ovation for this, I'm just saying.

 Take a step out of your shoes for a minute, I mean seriously, remove your shoes and stand bare the ground. Okay, once you are there, simply close your eyes and envision your life, with a disability, any disability would do just fine.

 From school to even finding a job, can you clearly see that? This is no fun and games, this is really enough to cause pain. It has caused pain for many, and it sure has. And we have had enough of it.

Each day we conquer our daily battles, whether you don't want to believe us or not, this is our life. We have enough courage and strength, to not take on anyone's bull shit. So, for one thing, don't compare your life against ours. You can walk and breeze right through a door, with a cheerful grin. And let's not get this confused... you would clearly understand what I meant by this. Days in and days out, phone calls after phone calls, and not one call back. Damn if we're trying our hardest, at finding a job!

  I can clearly speak through experience, working from the back of the house to assisting others. And my payment was only felt through the heart. But, my heart can't pay for my necessities. So, I'm waking up figuring out this life... I'm doing everything right. But, yet, I have to deal with: the outside world of people, whose hearts are not pure, clearly taking advantage. So, I'm working hard on building my own empire... I definitely earned it. And this is what true pain feels like, people think you're vulnerable... I will help each person with the kindness of my heart. But, now it's time to fly free... I really haven't done anything for myself.

Is this love or pain

Our hearts are like butterflies without wings, they flutter inside the cage therein. But, how can a heartbeat break, if our hearts never grew wings? There are times where I truly feel this heart sink, it gets buried deep inside. Do you even care about these waterfalls? 

 Can you tell me, if I were to fall, would you be there to pick me back up...I'm deeply buried in these scars. These tears are the stories of my struggle, and I'm done with carrying on this way. Heartbeat for a heartbeat, and breath after breath, this has always been my story. But, it's surely about to change. 

  These words will become our stitches to healing a broken heart. So, can I reach out to you, when I desperately need you... I don't want to come home. Therefore, keep your heart wide open... I know someday, I will need you.

Invisible

Dramatic sounds hit the ground, when the sound of the unknown voice is heard. Some were the sound of children, and some sounded like, voices unheard. They seem to create chaos, building demonic glare, keeping you from speaking up. Small talk seems to be their thing, as they are digging their own hole.

You need to always keep your guard up...you already know what they're after. You need to move slowly. But, you need to do it quickly... they're all about time. If they throw stones, you aught to  dodge them. Like, a bullet. Now quickly draw out your master plan, keep it hidden so they can't find it...they want to know your entire system.

They become excited over high burning flames. Now, can't you see there's no Angelica side to them. So, the moment you hear the sound of thunder, you better make a move... following comes the rain.