The Truth behind this shadow

I am calling Houston, we have a problem. I am mentally stuck in a situation, and I seriously need to get out. I have been dealing with this for quite some time now. And I need some guidance... the situation is physically breaking me, and it's not my fault. I really don't wish this pain on no one. But, only a few can see this pain. I will continue to move forward, and break this chain... I have rights just like any other human being. I am done with your so-called pretend, every-time something is ailing me: Oh I have that too. I am done with all the comparisons. And I know we all go through that too. But, it has become too much out of hand. And it's really beginning to show itself to the world. Yes! Strangers can see right through it. So, it's not only me. But, I will break through this battle and will gain access to freedom... I am laying out the truth behind this shadow.

Heaven prayers

Confidence

Roses are red and Violets come in many shades of colors. But, who's to say that: they are only Blue? A child whose heart is filled with, nothing but sadness, can only tell you the truth. And every human that walks among this Earth can agree to disagree with me... your heart had felt sadness too. And on occasion, you still feel heartbroken. Have you ever stared out the window, to see life moving past you? But, in your mind, you keep feeling determined to push through, any negative labels, others try to place on you. I am not ashamed to say that: I am that person who will smash you like a bug... you do not have any faith in me. I know you don't want to be around me...of my struggles. So, you will plaster on this phony smile, when you are around others, and they can clearly see it too. And when you have me all to yourself, I become a competition. And to tell you the truth, it truly irritates me to shreds. Therefore, I really shouldn't have to deal with it. But, I have to keep in mind that: I had lived many lives before. Like, a friend has told me: my soul is a goddess angel, I can live through this one too. Including, frustration, heartbreak, and tears. So, today I will not hold onto any negative words. And most definitely, will not go through hell trying to give, any explanation because it's time to set myself free. 

 Poetry Corner I want to share a little something about this picture. But, before I do, I want to let you know that, I do believe every living plant has a meaningful meaning behind it. Therefore, it's whether you believe in it or not. But, I am not here to judge you. what I will say: Chrysanthemum (White), mean: Trueness. And I am a girl who loves flowers. So, this picture fits this poem well.

Remedy

My heart is in so much pain, that you can't even begin to understand. People will say: Reality is quite a B***h. But, this pain is so deep that, no surgeon can stitch. Every day I am trying to break down negative barriers--- some people have, little knowledge of my capabilities. You take my strength as a sign of weakness. But, each day I keep going stronger. I don't need eyes on me 24/7, making me feel like I am under surveillance. And if anything, just be patient and allow your eyes to see, pass my disability... I am no different than anyone else. Therefore, there are tears that I shed, that become my only way of healing. 

Reaching out

I don't understand why you keep giving me a hard way to go. And it's not like, I asked for a life of broken promises. And you want to keep a tight hold on me. You are truly breaking this soul... it hurts deep. So, I am going to keep reaching out to the universe... I know it hears and see's, what's going on. So, you can say and do, whatever you please. But, God knows what your heart is full of, and the world sees it too. I am done with having to feel like, I need to hide and stay wrapped up in a cocoon for most of my life. And always staying in because of someone else guilt. And I am not the one who is holding onto it. Plus there are many others who have seen and noticed that you are not what, you claim to be. I want my freedom, and it comes in a big package. You will not hinder me for your own satisfaction... will you try to mentally distort my mind, causing my brain to go haywire... I am not going to hold back... I have held on for so long. So it's time for you to let go. I do have the courage to speak and say how I truly feel. But, I won't allow you nor anyone else, to keep me away from reaching my destiny. I had built my path many years ago, and I even place a sign of encouragement, with every road I took, fighting off negative words...you did not want to see me reach. I have learned to keep on pushing because I chose to be somewhere, and that path is slowly approaching. Therefore, when that day arrives, my bags will be packed, and this door will be closed shut... I have ended my battle with you. And finally broke the cord, to my voice of freedom... with my power of strength that once was tried, became stronger and broke down your barrier walls. 

 Poetry corner These are my words. But, I can't take credit for this photo. These are Foxglove flowers.