Unwritten tears

  There are many stories that's been written, and some are pretty clear to see. But, do you really hear any written about me. Conceitedness isn't my thing, I keep it cool and I keep it clean. Some may beg to differ because I try to avoid all conflict. So, finding the space to distance myself can become hard. Especially, if you can clearly understand what I'm dealing with, day in and day out, pills after pills I'm just clearly through. 

 I keep the liquid in my cup pretty clean, ha ha ha that should say something about me. If you get words that float like oil, its time to check your source... I only speak nothing but the truth. 

  I'm in my head trying to figure all this out, this life called freedom--dealing with attachment is hurting. So, if you walk into a smoked filled room, and can clearly see perfectly fine, you can perfectly understand me.

 I'm done letting out unwritten tears, when the words are hard to find. And it's not like I have tried speaking before--I've done that. So, now these words have become unspoken tears. 

This heart holds memories closely and it breaks very easily. So, if my silence hits you dead front in center, this is how my heartfelt for so long. And now you're beginning to understand my heart-felt pain. 

Hearts attraction

Here come the rain but you will not catch me fall, I speak with my voice, and it's nothing but the truth. And not many people will ever get, how sincere my heart and soul is, until they see and hear with their own eyes and ears. So, I might as well  keep myself at peace and allow you to see things on your own.
 lately I've felt through the ringer, frustrated with multiple things in this mind. And I bear not to speak because competition will be at my feet. My life is nothing to battle over, it is what it is and there's nothing really special about it. So, please hold back on the me too and learn to just listen to me speak. Not many people don't understand when I speak, anxiety is clearly in view. But, it's really there because of you. Social anxiety keeps kicking my butt, and I always had trouble with speaking so it's nothing new.
  I'm out for the semester but this head is running on turbo to finish what I've started and, I'm not the type to drop out on anything, if my heart is holding stuck on doing something, you better believe this heart will go after it. College is definitely challenging me, and with that causing mental pain that most won't understand. So, I'm dealing with how to get my foot back in those doors because I have a goal from day one, and if you can clearly see I'm not done yet.
Here my mental status and its nothing sweet, I'm smart as a bee. But, there are a few hornets nest that's laying in my way. Some are clearly in disguise and, I can clearly see right through them. So, I'll hold a tough smile and keep on moving because I know what you're after and this is my life. So, let this woman get to the finish line.

💭 clarity

  I'm in need of this moment to find my peace and, some just don't clearly get the picture. So, I fumble through frustration while seeing all the things going on around me. So, I fill a clear glass cup with water, knowing this water will purify me... I see demonic entity and they sure don't like me. So, the hell with them as I continue to pin all these thoughts I get on the daily.
 I lay in my bed sober from all the toxic that's polluting everyone's judgment. am I the only one who can see clearly? Silence is the golden answer to protecting me... I don't have any room for debates.

  One day I will reach what I have always been yearning for, freedom and along with that will come freedom of speech. So, today like any other day, I stand for myself and what I firmly believe in. I'll fight in silence at times knowing God and his Angels are watching up above. So, my lips are sealed and allow God to take control. 

Pleat

  I'm looking up towards the clouds, knowing that where pain is no longer pain. And that doesn't really ease the pain. Therefore, I try to throw it out like a deck of cards. These words are not coming out clearly as they should, words flowing out like a child scribbling on paper. I'm not doing well. How did you miss it?

  This person who stands in front of me is emotionally broken. So, here I go writing every scene like it's a murder mystery and it's not in any particular order. She's twelve years old and standing alone, at least she thought until a group of people came bullying her for the use of her locker. 

Ugh the bullying entourage. Therefore, she opens her mouth to speak and the bullying entourage refuses to listen. listen clearly, Someone unexpected, spoken twice which alerted the principal. 

 She's always being pulled out of her comfortable zone. And she goes into a complete verbal shut down with a hint of fear hidden behind it. Don't ever get her wrong when she does speak because these words are true.

Communicating is her difficulty and it's for her place to put these things in words.

 She's finally an adult now and still dealing with emotional discomfort. Can she find her way out of feeling this way? She has found her escape in getting these words out. But, she still struggles with it at times. Like the lines in making a sharp crease in a pair of Jeans.

❤️ Open heart ❤️

  This is my heart prayer...this organ has been yearning for  years and sometimes it bring me to tears, reaching out for freedom without any human attachments. My girl,Kelly Clarkson, song it in her debut album,Thankful.
  I know some won't understand how this heart truly feels. And trying to speak up about it has become quite hard. So, if you don't understand how this heart feels, this will be the best time to express it, I'm a capable human being. But, its the fear of others who can't see pass my disability, no matter how hard I try, they seem to stay blindsided. This isn't my fear at all...I know what I'm capable of. So, there are times this heart knows, what it's up against. But, words don't want to be heard, nor watch from the sideline, to that I'm capable.
  Independent this heart screams, move back like you just entered a crime scene, I'm fully capable and can do things on my own. And just in case you didn't know, suffocation, is the best way to describe this.
  I need to be physically set free... this is really affecting me mentally. And this is how my heart truly feels... for years I have become someone else shadow.
  

💕Family love 💕

  Let me ask you this, why spread lies like peanut butter and jelly. And causing pain like no other amongst hearts of pedigree. I see the slytherin inside of you, and anxiety is on the rise, you can't stop this blood from talking to my true blood. My true blood is who I stand close by...if their hearts are in pain, you better believe I'll be quick to feel it. So,let me tell you this, jealousy can't be easily hidden away, nor can you try to hide it...it will have its way of coming out 

Pulse

   Here comes the rage against the fire, and this really has my heart numb---with every word that flows, there is no solid evidence. So, am I the only one who can't  douse out the flames. Especially, when it you who's the in pain. 

I will remain faithful and, stand as high as I can--- these eyes can definitely read the book of evil eyes.  your heart is made of fire. So, I know you will remain strong and, I know the truth is lying out there---right now this is the forbidden chapter. And you won't stand alone on this one. If dandelions can kill the grass, you can find your spark to drown out the evilness of those unfaithful stories.

Peaceful Heart

Here we go starting up into sky trying to figure out who the hell we are. Eyes become weak when they look into the distance, have you ever sat in silence to get the picture...if you sit in silence you will see a clearer picture. there's no time to be a witch who is set out to scorn, stop being hurtful and clean up your dirty words.