Black Glass

My heart is in pain, and I don't think, I'll ever be the same. Broken red and white roses on the floor, do I ever mean anything to you anymore? Your tears don't mean shit to me, you once said to me. But, this soul is severely depress, and I honestly don't think you get that yet. So, I will remain stagnant in this space, where I know I am safe---I really have reached my final stay here. And no I'm not talking about death, I just need to really contemplate, on this stage of my life...I am done with living in toxicity. So, I guess I am all alone on this now. But, I must act fast... for many years, you have shown signs of an abuser. And keeping things silent isn't healthy at all. Therefore, I will continue to reach out the best way I can. You can't continue to keep hurting me, and expect me to be nice. Especially, if I am trying to do things right. So, I can move on with my life. You are the reason why, I am limited, and that's wrong. But, you keep planting theses visions in everyone's head, and I am like hell to the no. I am just through here--- your blinded and stuck in your ways. So, I am seriously putting my thoughts together, and I am leaving very soon.

A story from an Angel

The colors in the sky are so radiate that, velvet can't even match it. I am no puppeteer. But, I do know how to pull some strings... I took what I have learned, and use it to my advantage. But, to others they think, I am dumb. I am pretty darn smart you see, and there is no need to make fun of me. And yes Math is a constant struggle for me. But, some how I mange to pass it, to get to where I am. But, I will show every last naysayer, what I am all about. So, if you keep going at the rate, your going, I will promise you that, your road won't be long. Now, I don't understand why, I can't even speak out, when others are trying to hide their own damage. Yes this has been going on for multiple years. But, I see others pick and choose, why they even get to speak. But, when it comes to me, I am told: your not thinking logically. You must not really know me...for years I have always had this problem. So, this is not something new with me. I might as well go ahead and, spill all the beans... the truth will always set you free. Its not like I have recurrent memories. Like, some people have, I remember through their constant stories. So, when those stories are being repeated, how can you not forget it. See I believe in women giving birth to demon children, and I have seen it plenty of times. But, I will say this much, your going to need more than an exorism to release that demonic entity out. Why you shouldn't had been playing with matches, when you where younger. And now your going to get burn. I am not sorry for spilling out any hidden secrets, on this floor. Like, they always say: aways better out than in. So, thank God the truth will be relieved. And I will not feel ashamed, if I come across that demon name. But, I fear it will come after me. So, I am not going to write it's name down, on paper you see, nor will you try to change me. You can go right ahead and believe, every word a child says. But, don't come trying to borrow my ear, to place dirt in...I really don't want to hear. So, the moral of the story is: you are quick to believe in rumours, that a demon child has told. But, when a child of God step into the room, you quickly want to shut them down. God knows his powers can't get shut down. And a lie can't continue to hide forever. So, here is where this story shall end--- God knows the truth lie's within. Therefore, you can keep spreading fire. And when that moment you thought, you were free, don't come calling for me...I have told you plenty of time. So, don't come pointing your finger at me.

Breathe

My blood is beyond, my shadow of wisdom. And I only know the truth... it will set me free. You try to build up your self esteem...you know that's your weakest point. But, it never seems to fail, when you are constant struggling...at this point it becomes a game to others. Yes! I am quite emotional sometimes, and I have the right to be. God has made me with, feeling and I won't hide them from no one. You can take my tears as a sign of weakness. But, we shall see where your name calling will take you. God is our father and he see everything. So, while your trying to feed into my past, to hinder my future, God is watching over me and you. And he will deal with you according. I see no time in trying to talk, if all you get back is, more hurtful words. So, I shall remain silent and keep on hanging in there. But, I won't stand for bullying... its a sign of a coward. And we shall see were that take you. Like, Dwayne Dryer said: How people treat you, is there Karma. But, how you react is your. I won't feed into your pot of stew...I know your words are no good for me. So, I have my own pot healthy stew cooking. And soon your gonna come running... you want my worth. Therefore, I will just throw my hands up, and give you no signs of affection... You have hurt me so deeply. And I will soon be on my way...all you really want from me, is what I have worked hard for. So, if silence has not killed you, with letting you know that: what others have earned, doesn't belong to you... Its theirs and they need to make a living. And I will continue to write... this is my true therapy. And I won't hold onto your negativity. So, I am sailing away from you. Like, a true sailor would do... for many years, I have been trying to separate myself from you. But, you make it seem like, I am the needy one. I won't be a parasite that, you can become super rich off of. I am my own individual. Despite, the things that want to hinder me. Therefore, my Disability don't make me, even though, its my daily struggle. And I do tend to hurt from it. So, I am going to keep being who I am. And if anyone wants to make fun of it, we shall see where that leads you... I am trying my damnedest to push through these walls. So, I can make it into a history book. So, my shadow of wisdom, will be far and beyond.

Soul Connection

Its 5 AM and the sun has not risen yet. But, this feeling you left on my heart is complicated. I am seriously in tears, figuring out what the hell, I did wrong here. We must get together and see eye to eye. But, how can we, if whenever I try to speak, you keep closing me in. I knew the moment, I laid my eyes on you, you were the one for me. But, their was an age gap that, set us too far apart. So, it has been over some years that, this heart is still searching for its whole. May I ask you, are you the one to complete me, or are you the one to: leave my heart crushed like an eggshell? I am not looking to rush into, a committed relationship to quickly. So, either you are on the same page, and get to one another first, or get your last notification...I am in no rush for commitment. Therefore, I know within time, you will not be so hard to find. Your heart is not bleeding as of yet. But, soon your heart will truly find, the one it was meant to be. And just maybe it will be my heart, that will stop the bleeding. 💖

Power

I had open my heart to you with true innocent, and holding it with grace. But, I shall not look back on a fool, who has handle with a metal spoon. People shall dig deep into their future, and never lay on rotten soil. Allow peace to come into you, and never ever look back. I am my own victim of shame, and I know things has changed. But, when the sun moves into the horizon, we must begin our own journey. So, I will pick the ripest fruit and, be on my way--- you must not dwell on the pass. Therefore, if you have read my story and begin at the end, I am sorry honey---I have not gotten there yet. So, never close a book on a blank page--- that where your story shall begin. You can say that: this life is over. But, this life is not over yet, until I begin to score victory! And within this victory that I score, I won't carry a broken heart covered in sores... those days are behind me. And I shall only looking back, at them as lesson. And if people can't see your change, place their naive view in the back of your head...they have chosen blindness over sight. Therefore, don't carry their judgement with you--- its their bitter pill they have to swallow. Now I shall be on my way with: a wooden spoon, while carrying my book filled with knowledge. And yes this book is completely filled, with no blank page. So, my journey has finally closed. The end 💪

Ground Breaker

Sometimes I begin to wonder, do you really love me. Like you say you do, or do you hate me---I really sense you do. And my heart won't lie to me. Sometimes I wander in silence to figure out a plan, do to the fact that: I am hurting deep inside, to the point I seriously want to cry. But, I have to tell myself: is it really worth it. And is this a battle worth of tears. I dealt with communication problems for many years, and no this isn't new. Could this be the reason for my shyness in public, and I only speak unless I am spoken too. I am done with living my life in a bubble, as I am trying my hardest to: put myself out there. I am tired of other people, knowing me as a label. And if this is new to you, I don't mind telling you. I wasn't born this way. Like, one of the lyrics in Lady Gaga song. You have read my story, on Rolling With Spina Bifida website, an organization website for people with disabilites. But, I must not bring up this history--- there was some evil stuff done. And I shall only speak of positivity. I am proud to say: I am one of the writer of: Mind Body and Soul solution, created by a dear friend Anna. But, first for those who don't know my story: I was hit by a drunk drive at infancy. And I live with a learning disability because of it. So, through all the speculation of, what doctors had to say, I came out as a survivor. Now, I am trying to prove to everyone else around me, I can live a dream. Like any other human being... I already know what I am capable of. But, it's through their ignorance that, they chose to be blinded. And live in a space of what, they make up in their head. So, you can see why, I sometimes have to, fight for people like myself. And even that becomes an issue. So, now I have created, a no tolerance policy---I had enough of this. Once I break through these walls that, I am always behind. I am going to create a Disability movement package. And we are going to make, a thousand million March... each one of us knows our own strength. And with that comes our ability. So, we will shut down all the neigh sayers. And watch them come crawling for our money. Like, you haven't had it before. Poetry Corner This poem hold truth to many people with disabilites. And in this poem, I shine the light on my struggles with it, and showing my power through it. I speak for millions of people with a disability too. My dream will shine. Like, multiple people will too.♿

Closure

I am done with having my heart beaten up. Like, one minute you understand, where I am coming from, and then the next, you are disagreeing. My heart can't take but so much, and I am not here to please you, or anyone else for that matter. I have been struggling for multiple year's, and its about time, I finally bust down the devil's door. I will cast the light of God around me, and leave you with, your witchcraft. I am not afraid to speak the truth. And I know all the spirit's, can see you lying. So, God will deal with you according. This is the year, I am climbing to the top. And no you can't come along with me... for many years, you have tried to drown me, in your misery. You have for many years told me, I can be anything. But, now that I am staying determine, on the road I chose to live. I can sense your jealousy. And no you won't get rich from me... you always kept downing me. Therefore, I am not going to give you, my last breath... whenever I did try, you consistently shut me down. Now this is my final good bye. So, its time for me to figure out, how I will leave you in the back of my mind. This is truth and I am going to leave this town.