Secret admirer

This letter comes from the heart, I have been admiring you for quite some time. And I have been so shy to verbally speak the truth. And I don't know why, I have held on for so long. I know you can sense when I'm smiling or blushing through the phone. So, I guess my emotions basically gave it away. Therefore, you know in your heart that, I have feelings for you. But, I fear breaking this friendship bond with you. My heart can't hold onto this secrecy any longer. And these words shall sail towards you, so don't fear if my verbal words tend to slip away... the sound of your voice is throwing me off guard: smoothing this heart. But, I have not heard your voice in awhile. So, my words can finally fly free. You may have read about this feeling once before, and you didn't even know it was about you. I won't plaster your name until you reply, asking who heart fears this friendship between us, would break too. So, all I will say is this: Do you remember me sitting next to you... I do. 💝

Domain Heart

My words are written in silence. But, my heart speaks in action... I find it better that way. Each day lay a new journey for me to go against. And some people will be blinded because they don't want to see, what my true capability are. But, I shall not dwell on their lack of ignorance, nor shall I please them so they can be happy. I'm only here to learn and to teach others. But, if ignorance is your cup of tea, I will only wish you luck and see where it will take you...my heart dream won't lay still. I shall learn how to not, to lead out my heart so easily...not everyone see it out of kindness. So, I must place a limit on this heart of mine. So, people can't just walk all over it. These are my heart intentions, I shall show the meaning of love, and not allow this love to dry up so fast. My passion will never change, even if someone else see a different vision for me. So, as long as this heart continue to beat, I'm going to keep being me. It has taken many years for this heart to open up. And if I calculated this right, five years, my heart has reached it's destination, A destination of experience that is. And that experience was very gruesome. But, I made it through... I'm a survivor. Now is the time for this heart to, reach out to people like me... this is my calling. But, not everyone see that for me. So, that leave my heart on fire, which engages the flame even more. Therefore, this is not the house that Jack built, nor is it his dream. So, this is the vicinity of my heart dream and, I shall move on from there without any explanation...this is my dream and, my destiny. 🌈

Warrior Storm

Have you ever woken up from a dream, just to visualize yourself out into the real world? How can this vision become me, if my body is stuck behind the door, and no one can even hear me? I have drawn out my outline, you see. Now it's time to let go of me. So, I can learn what the real world has for me. Many years ago, I have been struggling without verbally expressing this. But, little by little, I have started voicing this. And my heart truly hurts because of it. Now it's time for me to: ring the alarm on people with disabilities again. Don't live off the assumption of, what our disabilities claim we can't do...to each own. We are built like you. So, it does not matter what you can and can not see. We can become impossible dreamers, and stand up to all you non-believers. We're dreaming higher than the Empire State Building, and the Statue of Liberty. So, try to close your eyes and dream higher with us. Do you see any obstacles in the way, and if so, can you Dodge them...we can. Every obstacle that stood in our path, was a non-believer and didn't see us as dreamers. So, stop and begin to listen, to us...we are tired of stressing our capability to you. We're warriors and despite those labels: Mentally and Physically disabled. We are going to take the world by storm. ♿

Stronger

If there was a sign placed on the back, of my head that read: for rent, would you rent out this space? I have gone through so much that, I physically can't take it anymore. And it's starting to mess with me mentally. So, I must rely on my savior Jesus Christ... I know he's next to God. I really sit in silence sometimes, wondering what is going through this mind. This pain is hurting deeper then you could ever imagine. But, at times I feel better staying to myself. My soul has broken plenty of times, and now I'm feeling quite useless...at times I feel no connection. I am not dreaming of death...my life is worth living. And this soul is on a journey that refuse to, lead onto a path of evil worshipping. Give this heart what it has been yearning for, a dream that will become: my reality. I will continue to follow the path to: my destination. So, for all the non believer, you can try to throw a grenade, just to see if it will: throw me off this path. And just to show you, I will continue to walk... I have been striving for many years, my words will cut like, an average blade. I need to be free, and when I speak: I speak upon my independent. I don't need to struggle to be heard, my actions should be louder than words. Therefore, I will keep climbing Mount Everest until, I have reached my destination. And this will show you that I am strong.🚸

Journey

Momma use to say: Take your time young lady. But, thoses words were never that clear to me, until now you see. Momma didn't want me to go down the same path, Like she did. And that I did not. My path is not smooth sailing, neither has your. We all ran home with, wailing tears in our eyes, looking for Mommy to soothe us, like a band-aid...we knew her words can heal our pain. And this body has been shattered plenty of time. Now its time to replenish this soul. So, it can show on the outer side. I am done with saddened tears---it made me stronger. I have this feeling that, bigger and brighter thing's are heading this way. So, this spiritual journey is not over yet. I will battle against all phantoms that, want to rain on my parade. And during this miraculous journey, I will come out stronger than ever before. If I do show tears, I will carry it with a smile. So, go away phantom, go far away, never to return again. Work cited "Mamma used to say" by Junior Giscombe

Physical Breakthrough

Today I need some inspiration to carry on with this day. I am doing fine mentally. But, this body doesn't want to move...deep down inside, I just want to break down in cry. I am not lost. So, don't come looking for me, I just need sometime alone. Today I woke up physically in pain, I am tired and want to lay in bed all day. I need to be rejuvenated by warmth of the sun... dealing with this physical pain daily is no rainbows and butterfly. And someday I wish: I could physically be in a different place. So, far away when I am dealing with this pain... at times it messes with me mentally. Therefore, I must talk to myself in my head, to tell myself: everything will be okay.

Dreamer

I am lost inside this bubble called "empty space." There are no rooms at all. And I'm just sitting clinched in the corner, jabbing my eye out with tears... my voice can't project how I feel. So, I wonder why I am left closed off to the world, seeing the same thing day after day. I want to close my eyes and pretend that I didn't see it. But, it's too late and I have to remain silent. My soul is hurting deeply in this shell, and I really need some comfort. But, these thoughts are racing. I'm like, speeding behind the wheel. Do I really need to speak and be heard like any other human being? Yes. But this life I am living must be kept secret. I am inside this bubble trying to figure things out. I am not allowed to voice my opinions outwardly. So, does this explain my unspoken words, or should I bury them deep inside for you? Yes! This soul is broken by other words that don't belong to me. Therefore, I became a vessel for their pain. And no, I don't want to shred tears of hurt. But, my soul needs to heal itself. My soul is here for a purpose. So, I am not going to stand still and allow other people's negative vibes to hinder my dream. I shall take this day by day... I am hoping for a brighter outcome. So, I say this with strength: there's an empire with my name on it. And I am not going to turn the lights out just yet.